Just some breathtaking things

Jesus, those mistakes. I hate it when I write with mistakes. God, why. I was right when I said I shouldn't reread what I write. It's better for me not to know whether I use wrong tenses or fail with grammar. Hopefully, it doesn't happen all the time. It doesn't, right?

Finally, I've got enough time to write as much as I want. Yesterday, I finished reading "The Picture of Dorian Gray". And before that I had been reading Sidney Sheldon's "Master of The Game". I really loved both of the books, each of them in their own way.

I loved everything about Oscar Wilde's novel. It's much more tragic and exciting and wise than the movie. The only thing I would say I didn't like about it is that the author chose Dorian to be a blond blue-eyed boy. I hate the blond guys, and the more I tried to picture his look with all the beauty and fascination in my mind, the more I realised I wouldn't even imagine a blond guy being handsome. So I just gave up trying and from that moment I only pictured Ben Barnes in my head when I thought of Dorian. Speaking of Ben Barnes. He's such a beauty! Sorry, I know I'm-. Why say "sorry"? Who am I always apologizing to? Nobody reads this, besides, it's my blog, after all. Anyway. So. I know I'm deviating from the subject, but I have to say. A few years ago I didn't like a thing about him. I thought he was too pretty, and that it made no good for him. But now, jeez, I think he's one of the most handsome men (but Colin is still more handsome, of course). I'm not saying I adore everything about him now, I just appreciate his talent and beauty. And I think he's a good person, not a vain one. OK, not sure what was that for. Back to the topic. What was I saying? Um, right, The Picture of Dorian Gray. I think I've just exhausted the subject, I don't know what to add. Oh, by the way, I've added a lot of new quotes from this book. Check out the page of my favourite quotations.

And now, about Sidney Sheldon's "Master of The Game". It was so good and exciting and sad. God, it was so sad. Before, I've never read a book that would tell about a generation of a whole family. There was always just a main character and his adventure. And this book. I've never read anything like this. It is so sad to watch your favourite character dying. I mean, of course it's sad. I always say obvious things. Uh. I mean, I became attached to the main character such easily. And then I watched him changing. He grew up, became rich, and it made him colder and even a little inhuman. And then there was an accident. He became a helpless disable and soon he died. You know. All those feeling I experienced while reading, all those unbelievable adventures. And then he just died. After that, his daughter became a main character. Or maybe she was the true main character during the whole story and I'm just too sentimental and Jamie actually never was the main character, and it was some kind of a prologue... A big breathtaking prologue. I dunno. I have no idea. His daughter, Kate, she grew up, married, had a son, and it's another sad story (truly sad, and I'd really like to tell you but I won't, cause that would be just mean and unfair of me), and then her son had two daughters-twins. They were the last. But OK, I'm not going to retell you the story. The book is thrilling. For once, I couldn't cope with it and I cried. I never weep when reading books, it just doesn't sound like me. But I cried then. For an instant. It's a really sad book, but its sadness makes it even more flawless.

Whoa. I'm talking so much about "Master of The Game" that it looks like I enjoyed reading it more than "The Picture of Dorian Gray". But that's no true, and both of the books are brilliant.

I'm writing for so long. I know you don't like big posts, but I do. It's amazing when I have something to tell, to share the feelings and experiences. It's a shame that this template won't let anyone see the length of the post until they click the "Read more" button. I have to do something with it, I don't like this feature. I want my posts shown full by default. I'll do it right now, then. And that means, bye x

Rage level: 81

My worst weekend. No fun, and I had no chance to surf the net. The only good thing about it was that it went by slowly. However, considering the fact that I was fucking bored - it was no good thing. I'm so angry, god you're so bloody happy you're not seeing me at this moment. Oh and I've just been told that I have to shut down my laptop in 15 minutes. I'm so fucking angry, god I am.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting for quite long. I was just busy with some other shit, I mean, on my weekdays, and then I tried to upload the new layout. Finally, I did it. It's not working excellent, for example the date has disappeared and well there are some other issues. I'm going to refine it when I find out how to.

My mother has recently celebrated her 42nd birthday. And when I say recently I mean 9 March, which means the day before yesterday. And there were little kids there. It was horrible. Three little kids, all screaming, annoying, making me want to die. That was a bloody nightmare. But I had no choice, I had to survive it cause not coming would be really offensive for my mother. So, yeah. Anyway. I've got to go right now, I have no idea why I'm even writing this post cause it's so meaningless. I finished reading "Master of The Game" and started Oscar Wilde's "Dorian Gray", and this would be a much better topic of discussion if I had enough time, but I'm in a hurry, you know, so see you later x

One does not simply recover

I'm back! Lots of things happened to me these days. To start with, I fell ill. Again. I wonder if I can ever stay well for some time. It's not really an interesting story to tell, well the thing is, after having the stomach flu I had to stick to the strict diet but I didn't, so, on Wednesday, I puked all night long (it was horrible, actually, I couldn't get any kind of sleep till the very morning) and on Thursday I was brought to a hospital and put on a drip and I took a blood test and all the rest, and it turned out that I've got Hepatisis (the liver inflammation). Good times. Whatever. I'm feeling much better now, though I'm still kinda indisposed.

Oh, and, I finished reading "The Catcher in the Rye" (it took me two days or something). I reckon I have to find it in English after all. I'm stuck at "Master of the Game" now, but I'm liking it :3

I was going to write a bigger post today, but I just got tired, so I'd better go watch new TVD episode instead x

Because meaningful posts are too mainstream

I hate it the most when people are taking me for a fool and starting to explain to me things I understand myself. Seriously, I hate it when people take me as a dumbfuck. I know it sounds weird, or more like obvious, but I find it hard to explain what I mean. I always find it hard to explain obvious things so they don't look obvious. If you know what I mean. But of course you don't, nobody ever knows what I mean and, sometimes, so do I.

That was the most shitty paragraph I've ever written here. God, this is going to be the most meaningless post of all. I'm using "the most" too often today. I've actually been doing my homeworks when le wild internet access appeared.

Oh, and, I just remembered, I've got some books I've always been planning to read so I'll just write them down here so I don't forget:

• "Perfume: The Story of a Murderer" by Patrick Süskind
• "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen
• "The Thorn Birds" by Colleen McCullough
• "Veronika Decides to Die" by Paulo Coelho (that would be my 3rd try)
• "Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho

That's probably all I remember by now. Why have I suddenly started speaking of books so often? Anyways, I've got to do my maths homework. And then finish my test of Ukrainian. Ugh. No more time for blabbing, see ya. x

Haste actions never result in good

I think I should make some changes to my "to read" list. Well, at first, I'm cancelling reading "The Metamorphosis", or at least putting it off until later. It's actually bigger than it seems, at least it's too big to read it on the website (seriously, I find it quite hard to read smth online when there's so much stuff (e.g. twitter) around). I thought I could read it through in a single hour, but that was so wrong and reckless, cause, tell you how it looked like? I spent about half an hour reading it, and I only read a third part or even a quarter, and I was already pretty much fucked up and tired and all, and then it dawned on me that, whoa, hang on, I guess I can't handle it like this. So, yeah.

On the other side, things about "The Catcher in the Rye" suddenly got faster. THE MOST OF UNFORTUNATE things is that when I got to the store I hadn't found it in English, so I'd had to buy it in Russian, and it quite sucks. No, I'm not like "ew reading in Russian sucks", of course not. I just. When I started reading it (yeah, I actually already started reading it, that's why I said that things suddenly got faster lol), I was sooo disappointed about the lexis. No, I mean, it's all fine, but it sounds soooo American. This is just not fair. I just, I wish I could read it in English, I think it would be much more, uh, appropriate.

There. I don't even know what else to write about. Just watched Supernatural 3x15. God, yes. I'm starting to like this season. Finally. I was afraid I wouldn't like a single episode. Who would've thought? I only need some few characters from the previous series so the plot looks more expedient. All I've left now is to wait for Cas to appear. Two eposides till that. Patience.

Ok, my TVD ep is downloaded, I'm leaving now. x

The leaves of memory make a mournful rustle in the dark

This post will be devoted to books I'm going to read, so firstly I'd like to start with my small "to-read" list. I've never made these lists so don't think it consists of a shit ton of books. Nope, there are only four of them:

• Franz Kafka "The Metamorphosis" [started]
• Oscar Wilde "The Picture of Dorian Gray"
• Sidney Sheldon "Master of the Game" [started]
• Jerome Salinger "The Catcher in the Rye"

That's it. I only read what I want, I never do it to reach a particular number of books read just so I look clever. Just saying. Ok, now talking more about each of them separately:

"The Metamorphosis" is a small novel by F.Kafka which I reckon I can cope with in a simple hour. We had been asked to read it for school awhile ago, yeah it's actually from the curriculum. I never read books from the curriculum, but this particular thing has got me interested. So I finally found some time to read it. Well I'm going to read it just now actually, when this post is finished. Yeah.

The next one's "The Picture of Dorian Gray". I don't think it's necessary to describe it. This book's from our school program either but I've always wanted to read it anyways and I'm planning this about a year already. Just can't make myself start it, but I will.

"Master of the Game" by Sidney Sheldon. I've already read his book called "Are you afraid of the dark?" but I wouldn't say I loved it very much and that makes me procrastinate reading the next one, but ok I've got to admit it, this book has already been bought so I've got no choice. Becides, I heard it's one of the best and most well-known of his books.

And finally, "The Catcher in the Rye". I've been advised to read this book for billion times but I still hold haha. I'm just too lazy and, all of sudden, greed to buy it in the store. I've always prefered reading real books, being all fragrant and, and just real, but now I think of reading e-books too (small note: as soon as I've got a device for that), cause it's much more practical and would save me a lot of time.

Anyway. I was about to say a word about my favourite books and quotes from them, but I'm just too tired now. See you x

2011 the summary

As I had to speak out I never did mention it was the New Year, did I? Well I do now. Happy New Year to everyone! I wish you all fulfill everything you have to, just do your best and you'll be rewarded. May this year be the sweetest to you, and may all your dreams come true. With all my heart <3

I've got a headache. Well generally speaking I wouldn't promise to be an interesting person at all, imagine how terrifying I am when being sick. Anyways, I've got a lot of stuff to tell about.

I really have no idea what it's going to look like when I finish writing. As you may guess I'm summarizing the year 2011, I mean all the remarkable things that happened to me. Dunno Y, just want to write it in hashtags.

#Merlin. It was really something. Unspeakable. The most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. I never loved any other TV show like this. I want to thank every man on Earth who took part in it, I mean all the cast, the directors, the scriptwriters, the composers - everyone. I don't give a shit they actually never see this, I'm just grateful and there's nothing more I can say.

#ColinMorgan. The best actor/man this world has ever seen. I cannot get over him and I don't ever want to. Seems to me like I'll never stop admiring him. There's a little bitter taste in these sweetest words, but I'll grab your attention from it.

#Twitter. My 3rd account (the first two had turned out to an actual failure) been registered on January, 18. I almost reached 10000 tweets by now, my number of followers is nearly 150. I really love that shit! It's ruining my real life, making me give up on it and I still fucking love it.

#InternationalFriends. Though Twitter made me lonely in real life- Wait it actually didn't, I was already forever alone by the time I signed up there. I can never say Twitter was all bad. It wasn't at all. F.e. thanks to it, I've made a lot of foreign friends. A shit ton of friends. They're not just silent followers/strangers actually. I'm chatting w/ them a lot, and they're all being incredibly kind and nice and friendly to each other and to me personally. I guess about a half of my followers now live abroad. U.K., France, Spain, Germany, U.S., Greece, Italy and what not (if i start counting them all i'll just lose count)! All of them are #Merlinians, so we've got kinda great family x

#11thGrade. I'm in my 11th grade and I'll graduate from school in 4 months- Wait, wait what? FOUR MONTHS?! SWEET JESUS! I don't think mentioning this makes any sense though.

#Books. I read some amazing books this year. I really haven't got much time for reading since I waste a shitload of my leisure studying (against my will, typically). But I'm not that dumb, I do read. I really loved Bulgakov's "Master and the Margarita". I also read some books in English, the one I liked the most was Sidney Sheldon's "Are you afraid of the dark". I got another his book called "Master of the game" recently, still not started reading it though.

#ColdplaysNewAlbum. Favourite rock band ever. I listen to them for about two years and I never get over their songs. How's that even possible. Viva la Vida was the one that I've fallen in love with firtsly, and I still like it. But the new album! I cannot stop listening to Paradise, and Every Teardrop Is a Waterfall, Hurts Like Heaven and the others. They're brilliant.

#Music. I also discovered some other awesome rock bands. There are too many of them to keep all in memory, but the latest and the most fascinating ones are: Andrew Belle, Death Cab For Cutie, Bloc Party, Muse (not sure if they're the latest, I listen to them for about a year already) and half a dozen others.

#English. Finally. I guess I made a great step forward in English this year. It cheers me up that I feel the progress in my language skills every year. I've got "Advanced" level already but of course it doesn't mean my English is flawless. And I have a feeling I made a shitload of mistakes while writing this. I use no dictionaries but it's 5am, not really quite good time for blogging. Besides, I'm not following my own thoughts and I'm not even reading it. I can hardly bear to glance over the post when it's finished.

Actually, I think it's finished. Indeed. I really doubt if someone's gunna read this shit. Night all x